I'm happy at about 160lbs. I'm 5'9" and I have a broad frame, below about 11st7lbs I start to look quite gaunt. I'm happy at that point, unfortunately I'm also more than 40lbs away from it.
I've spent the fifteen months "dieting." I joined Slimming World, I joined Weight Watchers, I joined Weight Watchers online, I signed up for Myfitnesspal. I bought a fitbit, I joined a gym.
I lost bugger all. I'd be good for a day or two and then I'll slowly slide back into eating whatever the hell I wanted and praying for a miracle. What I did achieve in all that time was to maintain my weight at a steady 14st and UK size 16. I had a holiday to motivate me. I had multiple weddings to motivate me but none of it did.
Then I sodding went and got pregnant again. This has been my worst pregnancy thus far for nausea (and I've had LOADS of them). I must be the only person in the world who feels this sick and has managed to gain 10lbs in 16 weeks. I can't eat chocolate or sweets because they make me totally nauseous, but by God I can eat carbs. Carbs. Lots of carbs. All the carbs. All the time in the vague hope that I will stop feeling horrible for about five minutes.
On average I've gained about 3 stone with each pregnancy. Two pregnancies ago I was 11 stone when I got pregnant. I gave birth and stood on the scales at 14st. I managed to lose two of those and then I got pregnant again, gave birth and stood on the scales at 15st. I managed to lose a stone of that. I cannot and will not give birth and find myself at 17 stone. I've been there before and it was deeply unpleasant and bloody hard work to shift that weight.
I don't know where to begin. My problem is I don't want to give anything up. I've been a long time weight watchers devotee but now they've introduced the Smart Points programme and I'm not loving it. Anything that I considered a treat in the past is now about 8 bazillion points. It feels a lot more like depravation than Weight Watchers ever did before. It kind of feels like Slimming World.
Speaking of Slimming World, it's starting to take on a new appeal. Treats are as prohibitively high in syns as they now are in smart points, but at least Slimming World has a built in allowance for dairy. My sister has also lost 4st on Slimming World this year.
So I'm going to give it a try. I'm also going to be brutally honest about what I'm eating so this blog will also serve as a food diary. I'd like to lose at around 2 and a half stone. That might be something of a tall order when pregnant but at the very least I need to end this pregnancy lighter than when I began it.
Breakfast:
Mushrooms, baby plum tomatoes and spring onion fried in frylight.
2 poached eggs.
2 slices of Brennan's Be Good Bread (Healthy B choice).
Glass of water.
Lunch:
Baked Potato, spinach leaves, baby plum tomatoes & spring onions.
2 slices of ham.
30g of grated mature cheddar (Healthy A Choice).
Glass of water.
Snack:
Skinny latte (Healthy A Choice)
2 x Alpen Light Bars (Healthy B Choice)
Dinner:
Beef stroganoff (2.5 syns)
Tagliatelle
Mixed Veg (should have had more veg)
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